Sometimes I think Atheism is kicking my butt. Sometimes I think, should we really be here
God? Is there really need here? I mean there’s a few Christians, can’t the
just handle the work and we’ll go on living our comfortable lives somewhere
else?
Other days I’m faced by people that are so anti-Christian,
and again I’m like, this is too hard God, what are you thinking sending
me? You know my faults Lord, you know I
can’t handle this.
For the past 4 years I feel like I've got the smallest taste
of what it’s like to be a true believing Christian in Germany . The looks you get when you tell people why you live here. They’re cautious of me, I’m dangerous to
befriend. What are my motives of talking
to them? Am I part of a cult? Scientology?
Mormon? Church of the Latter Day
Saints? Something else? No I’m just a Christian. My husband and I work with youth and with a
church in another town.
Honestly, living here changed my worldview. Sometimes I’m not sure if that’s good thing
or not, but I wouldn't go back.
Never. It’s time I become
stronger in my faith. Not dependent on
the faith I had as a child. I often look
back at that faith and want to go back to what my faith was then, but I can’t, I've tried for ten years. It’s time to
move forward. Take what I've learned and
be faithful to God. I wonder if I’m the
only one who has spent so much of my Christian life looking back.
